Almost.

Wow! It's been almost a year since I posted here.
I thought of breaking the silence so the last few posts can be bumped down. (haha)
I didn't know I can be so dramatic about love.
And waiting, and relationships.
Since then, a lot has changed.
I am not struggling anymore.
There are still struggles. I'm just not struggling.

A lot happened.
Mostly almosts.

Almost quit my job.
 Poor timelines.
 Sleepless nights.
 Overworked. Under appreciated.

Almost got impatient.
 Re: my last post about waiting.

Almost got interviewed by one of the top 10 ad agencies in the country.
 A friend recommended me.
 HR messaged my LinkedIn.
 Read the message a month after.

Almost, almost, almost. But not quite. It's not yet time.
I believe there's a time for everything.
And it's not yet time for the aforementioned things.
No. Not yet.
No, it's not rejection.
But a redirection.
God sets the time for everything.
He makes everything beautiful in its own time.
He is the Maker of time.
And He made you.
He made you for great things.
You were made to reflect His image.
His beautiful, spotless, perfect image.
He wants you to do excellent things.
He wants the world to see His glory through you.
Be ready for the time when He prompts you to do something.
Do it with faith.
Do it with excellence.
Do it for Him.

Be patient. Be vigilant.
Be ready.
Go.

His majesty awaits.

I am not ____ enough.

Here comes my insecurity again. I've always struggled with it. I'm very insecure when it comes to my artworks. I feel so down when I see other people's great works. I feel like I will never be as good as them. That I'll never be good enough. Some days would comprise of wishing that I was as great as others and beating myself up for not being as great as others... It's becoming a cycle. I make an artwork, I stare at it for a while, then I look at other people's works and just feel so inadequate about my work. I hate it. I want it to stop. I need it to stop. I don't think there's any benefit to it. I know negative thinking has its perks but I want to stop believing in it so much.

I'm just so appalled at how insecure I can get when my Maker created me in His image. I cannot tell you, I do not know where to begin. I cannot fathom God's love for you. For me...For us! He really wants me to believe that I am enough. I am good enough. Thank You so much for giving me this message to meditate on for today. From now on, I will not give in to my enemy (insecurity). I will look at You if ever the enemy comes close. He who empowers me, amazes me, motivates me, loves me, cares for me, and forgives me. I have been equipped by His love and the empowerment of the Holy Spirit to do whatever He called me to do. Therefore the mentality of not being good enough should be eradicated from my life. It will be eradicated. He loves me and knows what's best for me and that's all that matters.

I am enough.

It's only love?!

I stumbled upon Matt Cardle's single, It's Only Love. What an outrage it has caused inside me. You don't say it's only love! You don't say that love won't carry you, hold you, save you or see you through! I hate the lyrics of that song. Love is everything. God is love. He is everything. He will carry you, hold you, save you, and see you through. So you don't say it's only love... You say: it's all about love, it's all for love, it's all because of love. Because love is everything.
God is supreme, all-powerful, wonderful, He knows you and He loves you. Don't ever forget that.